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TE WAIRUA FREE (‘The Free Spirit’)

My spirit needs mending but I have
no coloured thread
to darn these fraying burdens

The eye of this needle lay gaping and empty
and I am standing on its edge ready to fall through;
a knot to my ankle and my fast surrender
and I’ll fly deeply in to weave new dreams:
a fresher self with perfect stitching
– an un-perished disaster –
still surviving in spite of her erupted soul

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 19 May, 2017

KALEIDOSCOPE

With you
I spent my years like money
and what is left now are the shells
of every decision afforded;
the skeleton of time
the only backbone we could manage
not to crumble. Our own had weakened.

For many years
tears would leak like suicide
and I became an expert swimmer,
the apostrophe of all my strength
the board on which I’d surf;
later, the oar with which my raft would be paddled.
I cried an ocean
but still couldn’t willingly drown.

Of late
I ceased believing that I lacked worth
and stopped just existing to pay the karmic debt
my reasoning concluded I must owe.
I unshackled and chose to live outside the cage.
Giving up on failure gave me purpose.

Without you,
the tangible clutter we gathered gets dusty
and I can’t decide if I should blow it clean
or leave these fingerprints to remind myself why.
In shedding the weight of commitment
I am no lighter, but my kaleidoscope
now dazzles like a jewel.

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 7th April, 2017

WEED, THE PEOPLE

Led by foreign madness, we
– to long expected sleepless graves –
will swim to sink and drown in numbers
weighted down beneath the waves
with nothing left inside but shadows;
no-one left of worth to save.

In one end and out the other,
warring with psychotic pride, then
born again and made to suffer
– karmic purpose ill-forgotten –
each new chance at life, a buffer:
“Next time: change…” we chant inside.

Cycles written, history leaking,
sorely weeping through the pores
of growing wombs and offspring born
– another child of soulless form –
to breastfeed lies, imprisoned, shrieking
time again: disease repeating.

Sin ingested (soup for poor)
– the bile of shame and burden lost –
as people starve and lives are sold
and terrors planned to mind control…
and all the while our sickened bodies
hover, rotting, rank with worry.

Toll the bells – it’s time to breathe
and weed this horror from our conscience;
steer ourselves towards a pardon,
pave the way, resume our garden
seeding spirit, heart, and mind
with growth to bloom for one last time
or we, the people, incarnating,
won’t survive beyond our mating.

 

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 9th July, 2016

THAT SKY (HAIKU)

There you were: that sky,
that breeze, those fluffy white clouds.
Now, here comes your rain.

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 13 June, 2016

TRANSHUMAN

“Once the fault of man, this short-sighted vision of detachment – now the fault of mankind – carries an irregular and desperate longing to evolve into something obscure and unreasonable, hastily seeking every excuse gatherable – hidden and apparent – to move beyond the limits of nature and into the promiscuous dreams of a science fiction writer.”

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 28 May, 2013

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THOUGHT #445

Releasing control allows a natural order to surface: one which thrives on the spontaneity of change.

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 7 September, 2012

FOLLOW YOURSELF

“Unexpected situations often force one to express change by making difficult decisions out of limited choices that can sometimes only be explained by a deep resonating desire within, or a call to experience an action that at the outset may make no sense or seem to dismantle one directionally – but ALWAYS the path you choose is the path you WILL walk, and though questioning why is healthy, it’s far more appropriate to trust your inner knowing and allow yourself to take you by the hand and lead.”

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 3 July, 2011

ANY CHANGE

“When something seems incredibly non-productive, unrelated to your endeavours, and the least desirable of all your actions, that something just might be the change you are seeking, whether or not it seems ideal. All it takes is a moment to accept such possibility and you’ve already changed your path and grown your potential.”

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 20 April, 2011

THOUGHT #214

Stillness is change in the moments in between.

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 24 November, 2010

THOUGHT #135

There’s something unique about being the same person one has always been.

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 14 January, 2012