Look at me, my pages are written in gold thread
and bound by the ancient skin of my past.
My library wails in whispers of conspiracy and truths –
of desire so outcast it finds itself homeless;
a thief
carrying life upon its shelled back
turtling its way between crowds of ears
too muff’d to care or to listen.

Look at me, my story is the grand facade
of my penniless home.
My memories spill like curtains
from the sills of these eyes
into lobeless tunnels where I chase for tails;
that I will to capture for a moment’s audience –
a re-telling no soul might ever stay its ground to hear;
my name on this leathered spine
not enticement enough to be considered.

Look at me, my tounge-pen dribbles with needled letters.
My lips foreplay with top-stitched finery,
archiving yesterdays in self-distress like ageing wine;
and all its silence
slipping beneath the presser foot where it cannot be remembered;
where the archives it declines to embroider
fondle themselves alone in knots
to ravish to the last my unheard
and anonymous remains.

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 2 February 2023


One is not defined by an experience that can be defined.

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 9 January, 2012


To learn from a bruised soul, one’s heart must remain uncushioned.

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 7 September, 2011


Nothing solid shakes like jelly but sober experience.

© Tamara Natividad | pisceanesque.com | Written 18 August, 2010


Keep in mind only the memory of REAL experience, for anything contained by force is wishful thinking and anything forgotten will be remembered differently by someone else.

– Tamara Natividad, 29 August 2011